You told me I was strong and I am trying to so hard to find that strength! I need it to help me! For three days, I've been sitting here at the place where your body lays, it helps me to feel closer to you.
Mom, how much longer can I live like this? I miss you, my heart hurts, and I've been crying for days. I want to hug you and I want you to hug me back.
MOM, I NEED YOU!
I want to scream but it is not going to bring you back to me. I love you, love you, love you!
I wrote this letter to my mother within a month of her passing. Those days were the darkest, toughest days of my life. I never thought the day would come in which I could smile knowing I would never see her on this side again.
I still cry and miss her tremendously but each day I think of her and I am inspired by the Godly life she lived in front of me.
Example: In her last year of life, my mom had lost her hearing, was doing dialysis three days a week, and was moving along in a wheel chair. In spite of these circumstances her love for God grew with each new day. I can still here her neighbors saying, that in the early morning, she would sit at her kitchen table with the door open and loudly sing hymns and gospel songs. I posted this video because one random day she asked me to take her to the radio station so she could create a new opening for Gospel Good News. I was thinking why, you can't hear, but I'm glad I took her. She had so much joy being in the studio recording. Many of days I think back to that instance and it makes my heart smile, that was a beautiful moment.
Today I encourage you to trust God through whatever situation you are going through. Your days may seem dark right now but God is true to His words. The tail end of Psalms 30:5 weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning."
In the words of my mom, Jesus loves you!
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