At a moment when I was trying to figure out my life, I was asked a question that was strange to me.
Let me back up for a moment.
During this time of my life, I was 34 and trying to figure out how I fit into a new form of life. My mom had passed a couple of years prior, my siblings were married with children, I changed professions, and moved to a new residence. Each day I woke up to live the life that my mother left behind. Living each day trying to fill her roles was comforting on one hand but more times than not it was very difficult. It was difficult because I was living a life that was not created for me.
Sooooo, when I got to a point of no return (October 2012), I would lay out every night listening to Hezekiah Walker's It Shall Come to Pass on repeat. I cried, pleaded, and asked God to help me...guide me... and to show me how I could find my own happiness. I thought it would come through marriage but there I was at 34 with no prospects.
Okay, back to the story. :-)
In the middle of November (same year), my younger sister posed a question that I thought was odd.
What would you say about spending Christmas with me and her husband's family in Kansas?
Huh? That's your family. How would I fit in? I always felt like the third wheel so why would I fly to another state to continue in that fashion?
Regardless of my thoughts of this question not making sense, I said YES!
God brought me to a new space around people who didn't know me so I could see myself in a way that I had never experienced. It was during this trip that I learned to wake up and be myself. I learned the value of me and how the presence of truly being me adds value to life. I left that week in Kansas happier and more confident in the woman I was starting to become.
Little did I know that behind the scenes God was creating a plan that exceeded and was more abundant than anything that I could have prayed for.
By saying yes to a question I thought was odd, God allowed me to meet my husband. A prayer I never thought would come to pass.
I wonder what would have happened if I said no to this opportunity.
As we move into a new year with intentions, resolutions, changes, and statements being made with declarations, always listen and follow the path God is leading you on. Don't be stuck in your emotions or situations that you think will last a lifetime. Life is full of successes and challenges. But as you go through the various experiences of life know that there is no failure in God's plan.
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